{How to Wrap it UP all in one}

Sooooo......as some of my loves have pointed out, I need to UPDATE this lonely little blog, it's sad and totally needs some TLC.  So here goes it, my spillage of words, pictures, thoughts, rants, anything and everything that is going to come to my mind on how to update you on this whirlwind I have been living for pretty much the last year or so. I will warn you I may leave things out only due the lacking of quick memoranda of things. As some of you may love or will cringe...but grammar will NOT be followed correctly here, there will be spellcheck done (maybe), and this will ensue of the longest run-on sentences at times!! I am giving you my deepest apologies now....hold it close, it so totally means everything ha ha!!!

So do I start waaaaay back? Or do I go backwards? A part of me wants to start backwards just so you know...it appears to scroll chronologically since I am so OCD, but that the same time that pesky ADD kicks in and I get all confused... soooooo let's just go from the begining....Did you get all that??? Get it? Got it? Good.....

So after a year of trying to have another baby we finally got it right.... we finally were going to be parents AGAIN! I never felt more like a ton of bricks were lifted off my head...errr shoulders.

And here is this little miracle we were trying for!! 

Something about a second one that is just so different from the first....I was so nervous b/c it just took so long to get to this point and some tests and all. But the day was finally here!! 

I will tell you I was NEVER sick like this with Aydan, I was so glowy with him, I felt great, but WOW this was just NOT the same what so ever!! I secretly wanted a girl but wasn't going to be sad if it wasn't. At first I did not want to know at all....but Mike is so smart in his persuassion that he convinced me to find out by reminding me I am going to want to decorate and shop in the worst way!! Damn!!! Damn him for being so right...yes there you have it I was persuaded by shopping folks, I am most indeed a woman in those aspect!! 

So we found out in September 2010  that we were having ( I know I know you all now but its like I am saying it for the first time again ha ha):

A GIRL!!!!!!!! 

Wow!!! I cried happy tears and my heart skipped a beat....Mike's heart skipped a beat but I am sure not for the same reason ha ha!! His face went white!! Oh boy his biggest fear.... I am pretty sure he was just in-visioning "How and where do I get a gun?"

I won't lie, having a girl always scared me, but this time, it melted my heart!! I thought of all the girly things we could do together that I never got to do as a kid!! I thought about how she would have an awesome big brother to be there for her that I never had!! As a parent I find myself always always thinking well I never had this.....so I can't wait to give them what I never had, not the other way around. But they will not be spoiled by any means and they will learn to work for things just as Mike and I had. Values are very important!! 

And so it began, the decorating, the shopping, the planning and preparation!! I won't lie the first time I ever went to shop for girl clothes I was soooo intimidate by how much I  knew I would end up walking out of there with that I turned right around and buried myself into the boys sections....it was a sense of familiarity! There is just sooooo much more when it comes to girls clothes... bows, tights, skirts diaper covers, dresses, shoes, sweaters, barrettes, and on and on and on. I think I was afraid I would just buy it all!! 

So here are some shots of big ole me!!! I got abnomally huge... towards the end it became painful to carry her.....and even drive!! 

14 weeks

18 weeks

hmmm I think 16 weeks

24 weeks

24 weeks

26 weeks

28 weeks

29 weeks

32 weeks

35 weeks

37 weeks

Winter Glistens with Sparkly Snow

So this has been quite the year, and I have been a BAD BAD blogger!!!

I will update this week--- but for tonight, its snowing, my bug is snuggled in bed, the fire is roasting and I am SO thankful for everything I have.....especially this wiggly little baby girl in my belly!!

Here is Aydan and his "Rae" as he calls Mason!!

{ Music On My Mind }

So you ever just hear a song and don't care where you are, that you just want to get up and sing and dance??! Oh boy that is the way that I am feeling now thank -you to Kelle Hampton for always finding such good songs that just take me away!!! I love it!!






So much is it just a way to feel so many emotions at the same time....when you are happy it makes you want to break out the funky music that makes you want to open the sunroof, roll down the windows, and belt it like you are Aretha Franklin or something.....Then you have your sad songs (yes ladies you know where I am going with this) that when your high school boyfriend broke up with you you just had to lock yourself in your room and cry it out to every sad love song that there ever was.....and then you have the soul....my favorite.....I mean you can just feel it pull at your heart in a raw way that you can't explain!!





So today the sun is shining I am almost done with work and I am going to break into the happy dance in my car for my 45 minute ride home and just be happy as the sun is shining and I am going home to my two boys that I love endlessly!!

My Boy Melts My Heart

Awwwwww sigh of sweet relief of the love that I feel that surrounds me when I am with little monkey.....he just elates me with so much happiness!! I am just sitting here wishing I could spend all my time with him everyday as we just have so much fun together!!

This is all that I can think of right now:

Thats it for today......the sun is shining and I have an amazing family.....life does not get any better!!

Milestones

Soooooo I have been in the dumps a little bit lately....it has become a reality that having another baby is just going to take alot longer than we ever anticipated. We are right around the corner of trying for a full year......I have my good days and bad days with it, today is a bad day hence why I find the need to maybe get it off my chest to help me enjoy my day better!! I think its getting really hard now because pretty much everyone around me is pregnant and some of them are getting prepared for their little ones to make their grand entrance and I have yet to still not even become pregnant, when we started trying before some got pregnant.




I know I should not dwell on what I don't have and focus on what I do have, but some days that isn't always easy, as some of you may know your own personal heartaches have to be accounted for, just because you do have a great life doesn't mean you can't be sad sometimes.



OK ENOUGH of my own personal pity party, time to move on to something SO VERY amazing......Aydan. He is no longer going to be technically a baby, in a short time he is going be the big 2!!! I can't believe how fast time goes, I wish it would chug along rather than steam full speed ahead

From this

to this

Sweet & Stuff .......dun dun dun.....Rough & Tough

ha ha he's still an angel, just such a big boy now

We have been preparing for his Monkey Jungle Birthday set to happen in only just 3 more weeks!! I can't believe it, I am so excited to have everyone over to celebrate the birth of my sweet boy. I am so excited to see his face light up with the new swing set we got him and when he sees all his cousins and little friends that he just loves dearly. Nothing makes my heart flutter more than watch my little man's face light up with joy, it is such an exhilarating feeling.......

We got alot of Ideas from some great minds....here; everything was just so cute!!

So the invitations have been made and sent out yesterday all thanks to my wonderful husband Mike getting them to the post office for me!! He's just so sweet to do his part. My cupcake stand came in yesterday...big enough to hold 48 cupcakes. We will be aiming for those delightful Betty Crocker jungle animal cupcakes and two Monkey cakes!!

So for an update of how this turned out .......

So here are the cupcakes all displayed in the jungle glory!! 

This was Aydan's Special Cake just for him.... I actually made him two since I had some much batter!! It was just as fun eating it as it was making it all!!  

My little fluffy red head getting to enjoy it! ..... (I am writing/updating this a year later and its amazing to look back and his baby features and this think how fast time has already gone by)

What do you think? Can I pass for Betty Crocker someday???

Celebrating Yet Another Year

So be that it may that I have to get another year older...... Funny thing is I am more OK  with it than I thought that I would be with being in the last year of my 20's......yes yes I am 29 today!!! I guess the thought is I am going to live it up for this last year of my 20's.....learn new things if I can, do as much as I can and yes friends maybe get a date in with my hubby for the first time since Aydan was born!!

Hmmmm life without my son.....could never imagine it, that life is only a distant memory, but a good with that. But this chapter of my life being mommy I love on both good days and bad. I just really love this chapter of my life and growing now with my little man is just amazing in every way!! I feel so very lucky to have everything that I do at this age.........

• An adoring husband that always puts up with me. He is supportive, loving, his own comedian.....and most of all he is my best friend that I can confide in. There is nothing better in this world than having someone you love so much standing right beside you and while they are you can feel how much their love surrounds you.
• An extrordinary son......who amazes me everyday!! He is so smart and inquizative, the amount of curiosity that I see in him is just astounding. He is everything that I dreamed of....even on a bad day!! I love that feeling of knowing he needs me, that he depends on me to teach him as much as I can and show him how much I love him each and everyday!!

My love and inspiration for everyday:

Goals

So I seem to always set goals for myself......but I find myself mystified by the fact that I can never seem to keep to them. I think that I am still like that 5 year old that set out to build a sandcastle and two hours later you find that I have a bucket of shells because I have journeyed that far off course.....




Is it that the goals that I set for myself are unattainable or am I that much of a Matilda mind that I can't stay in one place for too long!!



Ok so here goes for a goal..... I am desperate to get to my goal of some day achieving professional photographer status.....or at least VERY good Amateur!! Giggle Giggle .....



Goal #1: Sit down and read my manual from top to bottom, forward to backwards and again....repeat again!!

(If you know me then you know I never follow directions..... I make up everything as I go along which can be a good thing and a bad thing in its self!!)



Goal #2: Switch from Jpeg to Raw......maybe that might be a leap for me.....but then again taking chances are always a good thing right!!



Ok and lastly I am going to have to follow through with this!! Good luck to me right!! I will just have to pretend that my manual is like a good James Patterson novel....we will get there ;)